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Name: Meesy
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 12/24/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: hmm shop shop shop shop..friends..uh FOOD
Expertise: attempting to be perfect w/ some imperfections since thats what makes one perfect
Occupation: Student
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7/15/2002
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| wow, okay, so i guess i forgot about my xanga until now. anyway, i haven't updated in the longest of time because i am so occupied with just about everything. school's in full force and i am leaving after this quarter inshallah. i'm going to sjsu in january and actually going to be a university, i'm a little fed up of deanza even though both sjsu and deanza are live at home type of schools. i think it's the different maturity level at both places, but oh well, this quarter i go to school from 730-1030 and then usually wrok from 11 and onwards till about 615ish. fridays have remained the same here at the brix group and i'm here right now typing this journal entry up. ramadan is here and just about to end, it was definitely a very enlightening time for me. i think i have kicked up a good 5 notches of becoming a better muslim. after Amrit's death i realized that life can end any second and if i choose the "right path" then i will surely feel content and not be so afraid of ending life whenever it comes. so a million weddings are happening, it's crazy. theres like 3 in december and a couple in november and they are all right around the corner. hmm, what else..i have so much to say but then this entry would be totally long. people don't really blog anymore eh?? i just thought about this and decided to scribble scrabble a bit otherwise i don't think very many people update them anymore, they are too much time and effort and that's exactly why i stopped writing. i remember the hype for them when i was in hs. the only thing cool about it is that it has all my entries so if i ever want to be lazy andwant a diary of the past then i can go ahead and print this crap out! lol! okay i am totally rambling now and don't know what i'm talking about. welll..i better go..hoopefully if i remember then i will come back to this thing and update a little more, ive been out of the loop with a lot of you guys since my schedule is soo hectic..=/ | | |
| time for a little update. a couple weeks have passed by and i've calmed down here and there. i've been really occupied like no tomorrow and today is finally my day off after a really logn 13 day work week. i worked at the bank and then the brix group last week and i had a bridal expo/tradeshow last weekend on saturday and sunday. i was totally complaning about waking up early and getting runway models ready until the lady was so pleased with my work that she offered to get a hollywood contract for me, and then BAM..of course it's all worth it then lol. i got a few weddings to do and that's still plenty. so there's that, i took a lot of pictures so i will try to post them up but they will be on my website shortly. after that it was a regular week working at the bank and then the brix gruop. i've been swamped at the other job since i'm only there like one day a week, it's pretty crazy but it's great exposure to my career, i can't get enough of that as we say. what else have i done, oh yes, i applied to SJSU finally for the spring semester so i should be with you guys in january! yay us. lol. ramadan is right around the corner and a few blocks down and i believe that i am so pumped. it's the time of the year that your closer than ever to Allah and seriously this isn't fake crap, I AM READY TO GET DOWN AND PRAY MY ASS OFF. i'm tired of people's assumptions that in today's society and in our age group people aren't pumped about a holy month and they do it as a fasad, guess what asses..your wrong..there's a good handful of people out there who want to grasp their "DEEN." haha i just know who the people are that have these thoughts running through their head, i really wish i could name them but then that would just start crap. anyway, so there's that. i don't know what else to add to this entry, i had a lot to share but it starts to fade away after a while. i guess it's the end now. | | |
| i just coiuldn't believe it, i heard from Wafa on Thursday that Smiley's brother passed away. wihtout a doubt i screamed "paul!? paul sandhu?" it didnt'register for the longest time. i saw his family for the last few nights and still it was just too hard to beleive. honestly, for the last month or so i've been thinking about death like nothing else. i sit there and i fear the dark at night before i fall asleep at night, and even then i am so scared because what if i dont wake up the next morning? i just keep imagining that im dead and im burried under the ground, 6 whole feet deep and god forbid if i am that bad indiviaul and God gives me life for a split second..the darkness, the cold, and the concept of being dug into the ground would drive me nuts. oh to top it off, what if some bug was crawling on me!? holy crap, i have feared death like nothing else, i swear. the fact that people have to die just really doesn't make sense to me. why the hecka are we on this planet when we have to go back..like 80 years to live is just so short. i guess i should be thankful im born in the time period where i will ive on past 35, unlike the dark ages. ppl died at like 35. this is the deepest topic i've probably written about publically..but honestly..i just want a change in my life to know that i will ascend to heaven. i really dont want have the feeling that i am like 100 percent hell bound. anyway, back to paul..i pray for him..and i pray for his family. being at their place this past couple nigthts has been so tough for me, i can only imagine what they are going through. my heart goes out to the sandhu family, may God make this time easier upon you. ameen. | | |
| hmm, people are calling for a new entry now. so anyway, last i left off was just the starting of hana's wedding and now her sister mariam's married too haha. the last few months have just consisted of all wedding events and birthdays and what not. i'm no longer at my shitty job anymore, thank god, i have found 2 better ones and accepted both and have been working. summer school just ended the day before yesterday, quite a relief but the class was actually really good. i really enjoyed writing my papers even though it got to be too much sometimes because i got to make them so opinionated. alright, now im sounding like a nerd. i need to apply to san jose state by the way, by the end of this month so that way i can start there in january. i really don't know what else to write about because so much has happened. i guess i'll reflect on the wedding since that was the recent biggest event..it was quite a wedding..had a great time especially when the night before the fesitivities started we went to steps of rome in SF, i won't forget that night..it was hilarious and everyone was so dam hyper that we had the entire cafe acting like the way we were. wedding was good too, especially the mendhi. dam everyone's getting married though, everytime you meet someone you find out their engaged! the trend;s changed, rather get married earliar on then wait another 10 years when you can't even have kids anymore and then find your soulmate. last night we went to masala grill and then after that went over to muna's to watch an indian movie and the guys went to watch dukes of hazard, ahh i wanted to see that! hmm what else is going on..i can't think there's a lot that's going on haha. oh yeah, my jobs..so i got employed with the brix group and work at their executive/corp office, that's a good job..but i only work there one day a week and now i've gotten onto working on finance reports and some marketing along with HR. this job is giving me so much exposure to whether i want to pursue my business degree in any of those concentrations. with all the consulting and asking others now i've moved over from human resources to marketing, as nadir says 'make money by talking and making deals.' haha, that is me. my other job is working at the bank, bank training starts monday so a good ol' boring 8 hours a day of just jargon that i won't even understand. overall, i was swamped for a while during summer school and having two jobs but i'm fortunate that i get my weekends and nights off, im very anal about that. hm, well that's all i've really gotta say.. | | |
| weekly update. hmm what did i do what did i do. friday night we went to another dholki that was held for hana in fremont at her friends place. we got some dances down, need to practice and reherse them for her upcoming mendhi in a couple of weeks. saturday was nadir's 21st birthday so went to dinner which included some of his friends from sjsu and got home around 1130..pretty dam wiped out since i had done a lot through the day. sunday was the sunday school as usual and then sadaf and i headed out to run errands to get stuff so we can STILL set up her new place. afterwards went to mirchi's for dinner and ran off to dance practice. hmm, nothing too exciting happening in the middle of the week. this weekend is the ISA formal, so im going to be attending that and also there's a couple other places to hit up as well. my first final is this friday NIGHT because our teacher is stupid, so it's from 7-9p.m. gotta start studying for that as today is thursday haha. then bio and poli sci are next week we're gonna call it a full done winter quarter. ahh spring officially begins on april 4th i believe. my classes are from 930-1230 m-th. grr, didn't get into math once again. looks like i'll have to go to mission for one semester and then hopefully ill be trasnferring to sjsu in spring of 06. dam, time really flies..i remember when i had just started deanza thinking 2 years would go by so slow before trasnferring would happen..i was so wrong..time just really flew by. last night my sister and i were talking about our ages and stuff..shes 28 but she feels like she's 21 and i'm 20 but i feel like im 18. really odd..i don't know why but i guess since i finally feel that way i can say that age is nothing but a number =) some pictures are below [finally got back into uploading them!]
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